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Letter to My Husband (Samuel Jones-Bastrop, LA)


  • I may not know who you are, but I feel like we're connected. When you move, I move; and when I reach out to you, a part of you responds. I'm not certain when or where we will meet, assuming that I haven't met you already!
    I like to play out the circumstances in my mind: do we meet during this riveting, heart racing adventure. . . or do we meet in a grocery store by the yams? Will I even like you the first time I meet you? Will you initially find me annoying?
    Ideally, we will recognize who we are and what we mean to one another from the jump, even if it starts off as little bits and pieces of "insight." I believe there is something inside both of us that remembers what we've asked for. It has happened through our past experiences leading to the knowing what we don't want blended with our natural inclinations. And like a promise made to an older child, we've been waiting for that promise patiently but strongly anticipating its realization.
    Just know that you're lucky. I'm smart, honest, loyal, kind and successful; I can make anything happen. I am your genie that's willing to do anything for you because it makes me happy as well. I'm here to help you grow and reach your full potential. But most of all, I'm looking forward to that full circle moment as I'm reading this to you in person.

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