Skip to main content

My Family's Legacy (Madison Elizabeth-Lafayette, LA)


My mother
Gave me a hardworking martyr complex
My father
Gave me micromanagement and perfectionist qualities
My brothers
Gave me a bossy attitude and need to compete
My sister
Gave me a baffled sense of discomfort and inadequacy
My family bequeathed unto me these personality traits 
They like to sharpen the edges of my failings against the blades of their fear and fanaticism
Pushing away someone they can't stop loving but are unable to interact with
Our relationships have turned into
Grocery lists of our days and edited versions of old anecdotes 
We all tiptoe around our inability to look each other in the eye
They refuse to acknowledge my opinions as valid 
They belittle me
While sitting on their high horses in the clouds
I can't help but wonder what they would really think
Of my happy dirty frolics down here on the ground 
If they could stand in my shoes even for a moment
But they cover their eyes and turn away
Denial makes the pain of growing up and apart seem invisible
You formed me and made me the woman I am today,
Why can't you stand to look at me?
If I am anything, it is the very legacy of your love
The moment you became a family, embodied 
What should bring a feeling of belonging
Only gives me a sense of loss.

Comments

  1. Wow, so sorry to know you think so little of us. Dad

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

This Little White Boy Who Wanted Some Nigger In Him (James Leland Ludeau III - Lafayette, LA)

Grew up on a plantation
Removed
Secluded from the world
I knew classes but didn’t understand race
Because what raced through my veins wasn’t something of which I could ever speak
My father could fuck the slave girls
But I couldn’t touch the men
It filled me with resentment
Fueled my resentment with lust
Until it was too much to take
It was a small contained community
White as the cotton in the fields
Only dark around the edges where the black men lived
Ploughing the fields
I’d imagine them ploughing me
Sinewy
Glistening with sweat as the sun bathed their shoulders
The sweat running down until it pooled around the waistband of their thin cotton pants
Their skin
Black, almost indigo, like night
Some like coffee with milk in it
Cafe au lait
I could smell their musk
Watched as their muscly bodies worked
I yearned
Burned
This little white boy who wanted some nigger in him
To fall beneath the weight of one
As he heaved
As he forced his throbbing cock into my crevice
I longed for even the pa…

"I Love You" is Enough (Louis Toliver Jr)

Please don’t stress I see what you do all year Everyday you show me Through your actions How much you care for me But please don’t stress It’s not money or possessions That make me give my life to you It’s the moments that are small When people don’t care to look That you show your love most So don’t stress to demonstrate What you already know you do Just say “I love you” and… My underwear will come off for you

Poet's Cry for Mike Tidewell (Barry Sons - Berwick, LA)

I heard the Politician say in a hunter’s whisper, “There’s a poet in the marsh, I heard one today. He was crying about the marshland’s accelerated decay.”
“Mr. Politician, can you help us anyway? I refuse to think our marsh is so quickly Going away. If we can scan the galaxy And bring men back from the dead, Why can’t we save our marsh? I can’t Get that around my head.”
There’s a poet in the marsh, I heard one today. Whining and crying; Who needs them anyway?” “Mr. Politician, I’m here to make you feel. Try to wrap your heart around the things that Are real. Like love and friendship passion and Sorrow; the love of earth and concern for tomorrow.”
“There’s a poet in the marsh, I heard one today." Mr. Politician, I cry for America’s wetlands,