My Teacher (James Leland Ludeau-Lafayette, LA)

My dick is on hiatus

Don’t want nothing to do with yyou

If it weren’t for blowjobs

You’d have no job at all

You contribute nothing

But grief

I’m in disbelief

That I fell for you desperation

Wasn’t love at all

Didn’t see the fall

The sex was too sweet

Rolling in the sheets

Til my skin burned

I yearned

To last longer than the cum

Left me dumb

Once you had what you wanted

You cast me away

Numb

Your DNA on my skin

Sin

Filled with pain

Almost under the dirt

From the hurt

It was almost a homicide

I was so traumatized

But in the end it carved me

into a new man

A stronger creature

More aware of my words and deeds

No longer a prison of your needs

Your greed would lead

Me into better directions

So I thank you

Meant to

Shake my core

Teach me more

Thank I though I needed to know

Lead me where I need to go

This student was ready

Freddy

So my teacher taught

We fought

Nearly extinguished the flame

Covered in shame

Bather & renewed

But still missing you

Wise & reborn

My spirit is torn

Between times with you

And my life that is new