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Then He Kissed Me (Louis Toliver Jr. - Swartz, LA)

I felt so alone in a small city until I met him…(“Then He Kissed Me” by The Crystals begins to play).
It was a Saturday night. I peered from the downtown-parking garage to a street full of restaurants and bars filled with self-denial and the denial towards others at its core. I had already figured this out being that I felt smothered by the artificial layers of happiness the small city had offered its citizens. The idea that family was the strongest bond was a joke. Women having affairs at home, while their men had affairs in public bathrooms. No real bond was between her or him or with their children, who were playing videos games to cope. The idea that this small city was a family was a joke.
I wasn’t even accepted in my own family. I was gay and I didn’t want to hide who I was. I was lonely. He was constantly trying to show me he was there for me, but I was always lost in my head with rejection. I could barely enjoy the relationship. I was escaping reality for the night.Watching eve…

M.A.N. (Louis Toliver Jr. - Swartz, LA)

The boy pledges anxiously struggled as their bodies were being placed somewhere. They couldn’t see. They couldn’t move. Their mouths covered by duct tape. They were used to the constant routine and torture by now. Thankfully, it was the last day, the last night.
“Alright brothers!” Brad spoke from the sound room in the balcony of the auditorium. “You can take the fags’ blindfolds off and their lipstick!” Every year, fraternity presidents took pride in their initiations for their new members. The initiations weren’t usually as intense as this year, but with each new president came their memories of humiliation. Some past presidents were a bit more compassionate than others, but Brad was from Texas. “Fags, I assume you can hear me?”
“Yes, oh-wonderful-handsome-god Brad,” the boys said in unison.
A spotlight flicked on revealing Vince, Sid, and Dave standing on stage. Vince in his boxers, Sid in his briefs, and Dave in a jockstrap that he was sure wasn’t his. They all had their hands tied b…

Perfect (Louis Toliver Jr. - Swartz, LA)

One day little Billy was harmlessly walking through the world, quite sad because he couldn’t be what others wanted him to be. His judgment clouded by the burden of others' thoughts, he fell down to the earth and prayed up to God.

“Oh, God, why can’t I be perfect like you?” little Billy cried hard for a seemingly long time. 

As little Billy's tears hit the ground, they evaporated and formed clouds in the sky. Then, those clouds shaped into a figure in the sky.

“But you are like me, little Billy," the cloud spoke. 

Little Billy looked up above into the cloud and saw his reflection in the sky, radiating light over the earth. 

"You are...of me," the cloud clarified.

The large cloud cried, returning the tears that soaked Billy. It rained and rained, until it disappeared and the sun was shining bright. The cloud's tears left Billy perfectly clean. 

"I am like you," little Billy said proudly.

Feeling connected to the cloud, little Billy no longer saw the importan…

Two Virgins Doesn’t (Necessarily) Make a Right (Louis Toliver Jr - Swartz, LA)

Here they were, Ben and Amy, on their wedding night. Both at the ripe age of 33.
As they had been told by others it was best to do, both saved their private parts, (Ben’s penis & Amy’s vagina) from being seen until this ripe age of 33. They never really understood why, but both assumed God didn’t like those who had any sexual experience (at least that’s what they were told).
As they lay in bed together, both naked. Ben looked at Amy. Amy looked at Ben. “So, what do we do?” They said at the same time. “I don’t know,” they both said at the same time.
“I’ve waited since I was a teenager for this, Amy.” Ben assured. “I’ve only dreamed of this night, Ben.”Amy professed.
Then the questions followed: “Do you have a condom?” -No. “Do married people need one?” -I don’t know. “Did you learn anything about sex in school?” -No. “Did you learn anything about sex in church” -Heck no. “Let’s just try, okay?” -Okay.
Ben took his penis and tried to enter it into Amy’s ear. It would not go in. Then, Amy took he…

Men (A Short Story) - (Louis Toliver Jr- Swartz, LA)

Being a man has nothing to do with a penis, nor a weapon.  Frankly, it is hard to make constant good use of either. There are many penises and many weapons in the world and very few men control them. If I had to choose between a penis, a gun, or a brain; I choose the brain. The instant gratification is longer, you can control other two, and you’re never left with a blank shot.