(Photography by Cully Firmin) I collided with the sky  I am suffocating in a cloud of bliss  To return is to die  To find purchase is fear  Yet I must rise above  I must see the father  Mother moon to soothe  Thank you mother for your blessings  Forgive me  Father grant me my old strength  Forgive me So let it be  A prayer from a modern white two-spirit 

  (Photography by Cully Firmin) Trans is normal Trans is educational Trans is beautiful Trans is powerful   Cara appeared into my life like a guardian angel I was empowered by her trans experience My heart was wide open to her knowledge She said she saw the two-spirit in me Maybe it was through my bisexuality We both had a different, yet similar truth: “That spirituality has no gender or sexuality” I paid attention to her wisdom from pain Understanding the hardships of the trans community We bonded on our experiences of rejection Depression, thoughts of suicide due to victimization Her trans, me bi, we both didn’t fit into society   Trans is relatable Trans is believable Trans is intellectual Trans is rational   Cara appeared into my life like a fortress of strength Her wisdom gave me the air to breathe An affirmation from the universe that I existed But my optimistic outlook was denied by reality We were the ones

LouisianaWords.com finishes it’s Spring 2023 season with a pride-themed finale! Join us for re-releases of popular pride hits: “Transition Ambition” by the late Cara Overgaard & “When I Look into the Rainbow I See” (with live Youtube performance) by the late Bisquita Stevens. Also enjoy the release of new hits by trans writer, Madisyn Barbosa with “The Best Part of the Worst Part;”upcoming writer, Le Voir N. Lewis, with “The Endless Circle of Bullshit;” & creator of Louisiana Words, Louis Toliver Jr, with “Trans Is Normal, Trans Is Awesome.” Madisyn Barbosa, Madison Elizabeth Holland, & Louis Toliver will also contribute to Les Mots Passé this week. You can now find live performances from our Louisiana Words Live: Mardi Gras Rehab  show on MotsdeLouisiane.com (MotsdeLouisians.wordpress.com). Finally, promos for our next live show, Summer Vibes, on Sunday, June 18th @7pm will continue! 

 

the best part is knowing when i’m looking perfect, with a great outfit and great make up,   and feeling on top of the world,   invincible in my beauty and personality and who i am. the worst part is knowing that underneath the clothes,   is not what everyone sees with clothes,   the worst part is every night,   when i strip down before my shower,   and looking in the mirror,   and wondering where did i go? where is the me i just saw just a few minutes ago,   the real me,   with out my makeup and clothes,   my reflection is lie,   the person in the mirror has my face,   but not my body,   the worst part is bathing that body,   that in the back of mind,   i know is me,   but the feeling that im washing someone else,   makes me wanna cry... the best part is in the morning,   when i hop out of the shower,   and wrap that towel around my head and my body at the chest,   and look in the mirror, and think to myself,   hey there you are,   and smile really big,   putting on my stockings and dr

When I look into the rainbow I see Blues like the sky and greens like grass to grow. When I look into the rainbow I see Yellows like the sun that gives me the vitamins that my skin needs. When I look in the rainbow I see Purples and Oranges that make flowers look so vibrant into my eyes. When I look into the rainbow I see Red that stands for hate the same hate that is why a lot of us can't marry the person that we love with all our of heart. Isn't red supposed to mean love? Red hate, just because I love someone in my own sex. I also see hate in my own gay community. Who cares If I can't wear the latest fashion because of money that I don't have? It should be what is in my heart.  Stop the hate and stand together as one.

  I have often listened to your shenanigans o’ so attentively  that I easily remember the characters in your five-act mystery. No  acting  award is befitting or can be prestigiously earned for the drama encircling you r life  and the attention you yearn.  Your entanglements seem soothing to you. Like lullabies, they rock you to sleep. Wake up from your personal nightmare before you wake up six feet deep. You have complained. I have listened.  Things are still the same.  You remained imprisoned. You are trapped in a web of misery, surrounded  by  characters who bring you down.  Let’s end the tumultuous circumstances.  Let’s turn your life around.    Let’s end the tumultuous circumstances you often find yourself in by making a change of environment, giving yourself a chance to win.  I have opened my doors and my home to you,  g iving you the opportunity  to start over and  start life anew , b ut all I hear are the  creative excuses and  constant doubts that make me realize you  really do

 

 

 

  the chandelier falls shatters quietly i rise from the devastation a reflection of calamity walking on broken glass i’m joy during World War 3 honey dripping out of my cuts God pumps life into my soul i reflect like the sun we both like it

  sometimes i lay awake and listen to the train whistle as it passes in the night it is a comforting sound it reminds me of my childhood in Crowley when i was ten and we lived a few blocks from the tracks i would listen to the train whistle while i tried to fall asleep we lived in an old two story house that probably wasn't correctly insulated so sounds whispered through the walls easily i have several very specific memories of this time of my life and they resurface when i hear that mournful wail the time i lined up all my babydolls and wrote their names in crayon on the backs of their heads the time i spied on my babysitter when i should have been asleep and saw her smoking a cigarette in our driveway the time mom took away my blankie because i was "too old" for it and i found it and hid it in my pillowcase for 2 years the time i took a shower with one of my best girl friends [early gay panic] the time i stayed up all the way  till midnight  on my birthday the time we g