When I find myself alone in the pain.
When I feel like I have absolutely no one to turn to.
When I wish the hurt would stop.
When I don't know what to do.
When I feel completely lost.
When my eyes just won't stop welling up.
When I don't want to bother anyone with my hurt, my pain.
When I know that everyone has other responsibilities.
I don't want to interrupt them with my hurt.
When I have thought about all of the ways to make the hurt stop.
When I am tired of putting on my strong face for others to see.
When I am tired of the tears welling up, filling already soggy eyes.
When I am tired of the tears, tears that roll non-stop over my cheeks.
When I don't want to hurt the ones that I love the most.
When it seems like those who are supposed to love me don't get who I am.
When no one has any idea of the pain my smile hides.
When I am worried about being forever labeled by others.
When I am the one that everyone counts on for strength.
When I never show any weakness but I am at the weakest I have ever been.
When I just don't know what to do anymore.
Where do I turn..
I meant it not this way but the tears just flow and my makeup smearing all the more, leaving behind that familiar filthy residue. I may have begun to drive myself away, dragging you down as well. But it's done, I've flipped the switch and now it's dark once more. How painful is the music to my ears, I can't stand to be alone in it, yet here I am again. I pray you fly back and safely and warmly to me, though I fear I've dug the grave too deeply. As the dirt shifts within my soul, I choke on those loving words I'd meant for you. All the fragments of light I see becoming smaller and I wish to be near you in your embrace that might make me feel the warmth I'm missing. And in reality, I doubt I'd breathe another breath without you. So come hither and quickly soothe my dying heart, you are the only cure I know. I cry and cry again, come hither to heal and love me. Come hither and help me dry my tears.
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