When it all gets blown apart
And all you’re left with is a broken heart
When despair starts closing around
And it feels like your body is shutting down
I've been there
The one you called in the middle of the night
Or when you've just had a fight
The one who stood by your side
Just to help you to get by
My feelings always hidden deep
Your love is always what I seek
I watch you go through relationships
With guys who treat you like shit
But patience runs thin and love rings true
I can't tell you what I'm going through
My heart breaks every time I fix yours
This is starting to become a chore
I show you emotion you shoot them down
I often feel just like a clown
For with a heavy heart I see
You are not the one for me
And in my mind I always knew
I am not the one for you
It’s forgettable- the number of times I was called a “fucking faggot” as a kid. As a former child of god, I wasn’t expected to know what those words meant. I was taught that repentance was vital to achieving everlasting life. My momma made me go to church every Sunday. I said my prayers as I was told. But I eventually learned that Catholicism was never my sanctuary. Christianity was never my safe-haven. God never stopped the cheap shots. He never once prevented the harassment or pure embarrassment that I felt from the words of my “kin in Christ.” Now, picture me- a helpless faggot, blinded by the incandescent lights of an old catholic church. I was home from college spending Spring Break in my former hellscape. So, naturally, my momma yet again made me go to church. This time, on a Wednesday. It was Ash Wednesday. When I was among the folks from home, I felt out of place. So much that I’d imagine camouflaging myself. Like saber-tooth in hiding. But the difference? I had a far mo...
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