I.....
Waited, waited, & waited
Until the silhouette of my patience
Was left lingering on the window panes.....
Sitting in emotions of defeat
But this seat......
Was my only attachment to you.....
A connection between your soul and my heart
Yet, we departed ways
In the middle of our days
Where the sun would try to hold on to that last lingering cloud
Before the moon would break through the shadows.....
Neither could fathom the reason why
They kept seeing my face day after day.....
I
Waited.....
On you to break the silence
Of this dark disposition
Wondering where the moments of wondering where you are
Were nothing, but wonders pondering on what to think next
Yet, nothing was left to think of
But you made your decision
And I couldn't believe I sat waiting on you to appear
Then disappear then re-appear like ain't shit happened
That chair should have crumbled beneath me
To let me know our foundation wasn't even sturdy enough
For me to lay my emotions on.....
Waited
Until the silhouette of my patience.....
Gave up on you and us
There was no trust
Nothing to discuss
I could give two fucks on what you're thinking right now
Do you understand how much of my energy went into
Waiting on you patiently
Daily
Nothing could sway me.....
Not even the wind could knock me off this pedestal of waiting on you
And for you to prove
There was nothing there all along.....
Until the silhouette of my patience
Was left lingering on the window panes.....
They say patience is virtue
But my patience is done with you
I.....
Waited, waited, & waited
Until the silhouette of my patience
Was left lingering on the window panes.....
It’s forgettable- the number of times I was called a “fucking faggot” as a kid. As a former child of god, I wasn’t expected to know what those words meant. I was taught that repentance was vital to achieving everlasting life. My momma made me go to church every Sunday. I said my prayers as I was told. But I eventually learned that Catholicism was never my sanctuary. Christianity was never my safe-haven. God never stopped the cheap shots. He never once prevented the harassment or pure embarrassment that I felt from the words of my “kin in Christ.” Now, picture me- a helpless faggot, blinded by the incandescent lights of an old catholic church. I was home from college spending Spring Break in my former hellscape. So, naturally, my momma yet again made me go to church. This time, on a Wednesday. It was Ash Wednesday. When I was among the folks from home, I felt out of place. So much that I’d imagine camouflaging myself. Like saber-tooth in hiding. But the difference? I had a far mo...
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