The most complexing and painful question that I realize I
may never answer is: Why would someone wake up each day and make it a goal to
hurt others physically or emotionally. I don’t think there will be a clear
answer, but I do know that there are three types of forces in nature: humans,
snakes, and the lost. And though my choice to stay in my state and get the best
education I could possibly get in a place where snakes have chosen money over
life, I realized I am sick of snakes hurting the people I see everyday. I am
sick of all these lost people in Louisiana fallen victim to the games of evil
mostly through the uses of words. As I have been a lost individual like the
ones I love, I am sick of them being confused on who or what to blame for why
they are hurting. I am simply here to tell you in the most simple and plain fashion
that the reason you are hurting, Louisiana, is that snakes disguised as us are
slowing injecting us with their venom, right here in our own home, they have
chosen to destroy our self-esteems and our humanity and that is clearly a lack
of concern for life.
It’s forgettable- the number of times I was called a “fucking faggot” as a kid. As a former child of god, I wasn’t expected to know what those words meant. I was taught that repentance was vital to achieving everlasting life. My momma made me go to church every Sunday. I said my prayers as I was told. But I eventually learned that Catholicism was never my sanctuary. Christianity was never my safe-haven. God never stopped the cheap shots. He never once prevented the harassment or pure embarrassment that I felt from the words of my “kin in Christ.” Now, picture me- a helpless faggot, blinded by the incandescent lights of an old catholic church. I was home from college spending Spring Break in my former hellscape. So, naturally, my momma yet again made me go to church. This time, on a Wednesday. It was Ash Wednesday. When I was among the folks from home, I felt out of place. So much that I’d imagine camouflaging myself. Like saber-tooth in hiding. But the difference? I had a far mo...
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