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21st Century Problems: Episode 3 (Louis Toliver Jr - Swartz, LA)

“You have Attention Deficit Disorder,” the doctor concluded after his series of questions. “A.D.D.” he affirmed. He laughed, “If I had a nickel…” I wasn’t sure what to think. “Really?” I asked the doctor. I had never thought that I had problems with my attention span. A-D-D. That spells ADD, I thought. What could be the connection between addition and the attention span? I never cared for math. I remember constantly getting in trouble for turning all my number 3s into Bart Simpson faces in math. The Simpsons wasn’t really one of my favorite TV shows, but…you know thinking takes a lot of energy. My head hurts a lot so I don’t like to think. It makes me tired. I don’t mind other people thinking for me, especially when it comes to voting. I lost my high school election for Secretary. I think it was because I was a guy running for the position and not a chick with big boobs. I don’t think I would ever get breast implants if I were a chick. But, you know, I do enjoy chicken sandwiches… “Hey!” the doctor yelled at me and I realized I wasn’t eating a chicken sandwich anymore. I was in the doctor’s office. “You zoned out just now. Do you need a doctor’s excuse for missing work?” He asked. “What?” I replied. “I had to work today?”


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