Diary of a Fat Fem Black Man (Lakari Jaquan Fontenot- Lafayette, LA

Is there a difference fat and phat...
Is it ok to be plus sized.....
Do the guys all say, "oh you're not my type", simply because you weigh over 200lbs?
Do they view me as unhealthy?
Am I ugly or unattractive?
Will anyone be able to love me, even though my community wants me to be unloved?
Men looking and thinking less of you because you don't have a six pick and beautiful hard toned shoulders
The same men who say they want masculine straight acting males
The very same men who say No Fems, No Fats, No Blacks
Maybe if I relocate myself out of Louisiana
Maybe if I lose a bunch of weight or just stop eating
Then will I be pretty?
No one knows what or how this can affect ones attitude about themselves
I know this, I'm big and I might not be the masculine man that all the homosexuals want
But I know that I'm beautiful inside and out
Big will Always Beautiful

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