My pieces lay scattered on the floor
Pale red amber freckles
Jagged oozing emotion
My fingers fall apart before
I can even hold myself together
When I look at you
And see your raw self
Vulnerable and open and real
I see the same as me:
Broken and falling around yourself
You and I look at each other
And simply see someone
That we cannot help but love
I must love you, you can’t help but love me
We are compelled and drawn to each other
Indescribably and undeniably
I gather you up
Hold the pieces of you to my chest
I will never let any little cracked bit
Escape my loving hands
Because I will always keep you close
Collect your tears and problems
Hold you together
And love you until you are ok
Even if it takes forever.
I promise this because I love you
And because you’ve always done the same
For me.
It’s forgettable- the number of times I was called a “fucking faggot” as a kid. As a former child of god, I wasn’t expected to know what those words meant. I was taught that repentance was vital to achieving everlasting life. My momma made me go to church every Sunday. I said my prayers as I was told. But I eventually learned that Catholicism was never my sanctuary. Christianity was never my safe-haven. God never stopped the cheap shots. He never once prevented the harassment or pure embarrassment that I felt from the words of my “kin in Christ.” Now, picture me- a helpless faggot, blinded by the incandescent lights of an old catholic church. I was home from college spending Spring Break in my former hellscape. So, naturally, my momma yet again made me go to church. This time, on a Wednesday. It was Ash Wednesday. When I was among the folks from home, I felt out of place. So much that I’d imagine camouflaging myself. Like saber-tooth in hiding. But the difference? I had a far mo...
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