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I Am Mine, Not Yours (Louis Toliver Jr-Swartz, LA)

I did not give consent to wake up in the hell you put me in
I was just a number, at least that’s what you wanted me to be
You bent my perception and thought I was an easy win
But you will learn in this life and the next that I am free

I bind you to the life of hell that you bring to others
I open my spirit to the power that is destined to me
I shall rise like the sun and shine down on you with my brothers
I will make those who are not aware of your disgust see

When you realize who I am, my light will bind you into the forever dark
You have made me realize what I am not, and I am not you
You are the enemy of us, you prey on the weak, but I am the spark
They will come to know the demon you are, and the evil you do

I am not yours, I am mine, and I am the strongest man that I know
In this battle, I play for keeps, so if you know what’s best for you, let go


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