I was sitting around pondering my rushed makeover to look
like Justin Bieber. I was having trouble trying to figure out who exactly I
was. I needed advice. I took out my Iphone and decide to search some
applications. I typed in “how to be yourself” and sure enough there was an app
called the “How to Be Yourself App.” I clicked it and there were two versions. The trial version for free and the full version for $2.99. $2.99 cents is pretty steep for an
application that I knew nothing about. Had it been just $0.99 cents, I might
have been less hesitant. So, I downloaded the trial version and launched it
when it was done. It welcomed me to the app and then “Welcome to Trial Version”
popped on the screen and the “Tip One: Imitation is internal, not external”
flashed. I wasn’t completely sure what this meant, so I clicked the “next”
button. Then, “end of trial version” popped onto the screen and recommended I
download the full version for $2.99. “Mother#*#*#*#*#*#*#*# this is some
#*#*#*#*#*,”......I screamed in Korean.
I meant it not this way but the tears just flow and my makeup smearing all the more, leaving behind that familiar filthy residue. I may have begun to drive myself away, dragging you down as well. But it's done, I've flipped the switch and now it's dark once more. How painful is the music to my ears, I can't stand to be alone in it, yet here I am again. I pray you fly back and safely and warmly to me, though I fear I've dug the grave too deeply. As the dirt shifts within my soul, I choke on those loving words I'd meant for you. All the fragments of light I see becoming smaller and I wish to be near you in your embrace that might make me feel the warmth I'm missing. And in reality, I doubt I'd breathe another breath without you. So come hither and quickly soothe my dying heart, you are the only cure I know. I cry and cry again, come hither to heal and love me. Come hither and help me dry my tears.
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