I let you call me names that I never was. I let you convince
me that you knew who I was better than me. I let you abuse me because I had no
idea what love was. You were my first so I gave you all of me, first. You spoiled
me for the worse. I had no way to protect myself from you. You had infected me.
You had abused me. My stomach turns because I allowed it. I can not judge
myself though, because I didn’t
know any better. I hadn’t been trained in love. You used up all of my love and my
spiritual tank fell to empty. But I had to learn that even though you made me
feel expired, I had no expiration date. Little did you know abused me wasn’t
all there was to the strong me.
I meant it not this way but the tears just flow and my makeup smearing all the more, leaving behind that familiar filthy residue. I may have begun to drive myself away, dragging you down as well. But it's done, I've flipped the switch and now it's dark once more. How painful is the music to my ears, I can't stand to be alone in it, yet here I am again. I pray you fly back and safely and warmly to me, though I fear I've dug the grave too deeply. As the dirt shifts within my soul, I choke on those loving words I'd meant for you. All the fragments of light I see becoming smaller and I wish to be near you in your embrace that might make me feel the warmth I'm missing. And in reality, I doubt I'd breathe another breath without you. So come hither and quickly soothe my dying heart, you are the only cure I know. I cry and cry again, come hither to heal and love me. Come hither and help me dry my tears.
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