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Abused Me (Louis Toliver Jr-Swartz, LA)


I let you call me names that I never was. I let you convince me that you knew who I was better than me. I let you abuse me because I had no idea what love was. You were my first so I gave you all of me, first. You spoiled me for the worse. I had no way to protect myself from you. You had infected me. You had abused me. My stomach turns because I allowed it. I can not judge myself though, because  I didn’t know any better. I hadn’t been trained in love. You used up all of my love and my spiritual tank fell to empty. But I had to learn that even though you made me feel expired, I had no expiration date. Little did you know abused me wasn’t all there was to the strong me.

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